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8.10.2010

"Wonders of wonders! Miracle of miracles!"

You may have known from a previous post that we have lost two babies in pregnancy since November 2009, and if you have read on, you may have read my post written immediately after our doctor told us we were losing yet another pregnancy in June.
Well, I don't want anyone to think we were trying to mislead anyone, so here's what happened next after that new was given to us.
If you've ever had a miscarriage, you know that you have to keep going to the doctor and having blood drawn so they can monitor the hormone levels and make sure that they return to normal. We were told after bloodwork on June 29 that we were losing this pregnancy and to come back in a week for follow-up blood tests. My dear husband went with me, and after they drew blood we went out for lunch with our little girl. During that lunch, I got a call from the doctor's office (which they never do, I've always had to call them for the results and they never have them that quickly when I call). The HCG levels had risen really high, and because I had an ectopic pregnancy in March the doctor was afraid that I was having another one, so he wanted to do an ultrasound immediately. We went back to the office and they did an ultrasound. I'll never forget the looks on both the nurse and doctor's faces. There was an egg with a yolk sac! The doctor said in all his years he had never seen anything like this and he's a fertility specialist.
We were just praising God for His sovereignty and mercy and goodness to us! But we decided that we shouldn't publicize the news until the pregnancy was better established.
And so, we went back every two weeks since then, first seeing a hearbeat, then a growing baby, and finally today...








This is our baby!!!
I don't know what happened at the beginning of this pregnancy that made our doctor think our baby was dead or dying, but I do know that only God is in charge of life and death and He has made that abundantly clear in the granting of life and sustaining of life to our child! Our prayer is that God will be glorified in not only this pregnancy, but in the life of this child!
There are so many things I have learned in this pregnancy already. Since losing babies, I am extremely skittish and nervous about everything, and I mean everything, but I am learning every day that I have only One Hope and that is Christ. I have learned that I am helpless and hopeless without Him. That God owes me nothing, including a baby. That I either trust Him or I don't. That because He owes me nothing that there can only be one reason why God would be merciful and that's because when He sees me, He doesn't see my wicked filthiness, but the perfect righteousness of Jesus Christ!!! ("but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us."-Romans 5:8) I learned that for those who are in Christ, that we are all viewed the same by God, and that the most famous saints are regarded by God as equal because we all stand before God in Christ's righteousness and not our own. ("To those who have obtained a faith of equal standing with ours by the righteousness of our God and Savior Jesus Christ:"-2 Peter 1:1) I also learned that that means our prayers are just as effective and just as likely to be answered. This led me to the knowledge revealed in James that when we ask God something in prayer we must believe He can and will do it. ("But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea that is driven and tossed by the wind. For that person must not suppose that he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways."-James 1:6-8) And it led me to understand what Peter says in 2nd Peter. ("then the Lord knows how to rescue the godly from trials,"-2 Peter 2:9a) That God knows how to deliver us and will do it for the righteous, if I possess Christ's righteousness, then I am righteous and He will deliver me from trials! 
I know this may sound weird, but I think it's been for good that God had us lose our babies. For one thing, it makes us appreciate this miracle all the more. And what I have come to know, I mean really know, not just believe about God, I don't think I could've before. 
The fertility specialist whom we have been seeing has released us today to see our regular obstetrician. My first appointment with her is next Tuesday, and I can't wait to share the story of God's sovereignty in the life of this baby and give God all the glory for it! I pray that this will impact both the staff at the fertility center as well as at our regular doctors! May God be glorified in this life! May all who read this and hear this story know that there is only One True God and that He is Sovereign over all of life and death! May you all be blessed to see that God does miracles and He is faithful!!! Love in Christ!

8 comments:

Anonymous said...

AMEN! I understand the stress and concerns of previous miscarriages too. Im so glad youre trusting in Christ through all of this. I too ask God to touch the lives of all those Doctors and Nurses you come into contact with. With Love, your cuz, Janice

Michelle said...

I'm so happy for you all. I know this is such a blessing for you. Keep trusting in God and His sovereignty!

Sarah : ) said...

Thanks ya'll! We are thrilled and can't wait for a new edition to our family!

Sandra said...

What a Miracle! Congrats! I too know how you have felt Sarah. I have been there 2 full times in miscarriage and then a 1/2 time with a vanishing twin. You walk in fear of something going wrong daily. But We have to give all our fears and worries to the Lord, he said he would carry us. He has done that for me. I will pray that he continues to carry you also. I now have 2 handsome sons after going thru all the troubles and trials of trying to have a baby. These are some of my favorite scriptures Psalm 127:3-5, Psalm 139:13-16 kjv. A woman read those aloud when she prayed touching my pregnant belly. I wanted to share that with you also. May God continue to bless you and your family! Sandra

Anonymous said...

Your blog has been such a blessing and at the time convicting! I teach school and I have twins. When the stress gets to me, I often ask the Lord Why? when I should ask What do you want me to learn from this? If you have time, pray for me. Kristi

Sarah : ) said...

Thanks for the prayers Sandra, and I'm glad this was used by God for your edification, Kristi. The thought that anyone could be encouraged or grow in the Lord because of something I have said or done, is unbelievable to me. I will be praying for you, Kristi, and may God ever be glorified in your life! Love in Christ!-Sarah :)

Camille said...

Precious post! I hopped over from Michelle's (Losing Michelle) to *meet* you and clicked on this previous post to learn about this little miracle baby. May the LORD continue to give you HIS grace and bring this little one into your arms safe and well that you might raise him for the LORD.

Many blessings,
Camille

Sarah : ) www.crumbsundermytable.blogspot.com said...

Thanks Camille. It's always nice to meet another sister in Christ. Michelle has been a very inspiring friend for me and her family is just as wonderful. I am learning that God, in His infinite wisdom and love, gives us not only what we need, but as for us, He gives us what we want. May God bless you and your family, too! Love in Christ!